Choreography, Coffee, and Exhaustion: Soft Reminders
"I AM OKAY!"
She shouts out into the universe.
More than halfway through the semester, she's still trying to find her 'groove.'
She is surviving right now, but she'd like to be thriving.
Her body is aching and exhaustion pulls at her eyes, begging her to sleep longer.
Another sip of coffee and a small stretch, pulling up and away from her sore muscles.
"I AM SO LOVED!"
She smiles out into the sunlight.
SO much support coming from all kinds of places.
"I am grateful."
She whispers into the cooling autumn breeze.
Holding hands and sharing coffee, receiving rides and grace.
Learning a multitude of skills and attributes every day.
Slowly but surely finding more and more moments to breathe and lean into her faith.
(Here's a very sad looking arabesque, will post dance pictures soon!)
How human of me, to think that I have to do this all on my own.
To have forgotten long ago when I memorized verses as a Cubbie;
"I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13
I remember this with gladness in my heart;
"The Lord is my strength."
And here on this Earthly home, God has given me someone to give me strength and to help me in all of my daily struggles.
Here is me recognizing that this is a gift from God.
He is telling me that I am not alone, and that He has sent me this helper.
Finding your balance is hard, and trying to find your balance with your eyes closed, is even more difficult. At this moment I am trying to find that balance both literally and figuratively.
My new home needs time, my school work needs time, my technique needs time, my jobs need time.
Most of the time I am simply trying not to freak out.
There is so very much on my plate right now because I get a little excited about opportunities.
But I have blessings in my life who are keeping me safe, fed, and loved.
My supporters are my best friends right now; my boyfriend, my parents, my siblings, my friends, my family, and of course my Creator.
Through tears, hugs, and slow breathing exercises, I am able to not be in a chaotic state 24/7. Which is pretty nice, although I am still a mess.
Just as this post is.
I did want to write out a little update on thoughts, and since this morning has been so positive, I figured I would today.
She shouts out into the universe.
More than halfway through the semester, she's still trying to find her 'groove.'
She is surviving right now, but she'd like to be thriving.
Her body is aching and exhaustion pulls at her eyes, begging her to sleep longer.
Another sip of coffee and a small stretch, pulling up and away from her sore muscles.
"I AM SO LOVED!"
She smiles out into the sunlight.
SO much support coming from all kinds of places.
"I am grateful."
She whispers into the cooling autumn breeze.
Holding hands and sharing coffee, receiving rides and grace.
Learning a multitude of skills and attributes every day.
Slowly but surely finding more and more moments to breathe and lean into her faith.
(Here's a very sad looking arabesque, will post dance pictures soon!)
How human of me, to think that I have to do this all on my own.
To have forgotten long ago when I memorized verses as a Cubbie;
"I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13
I remember this with gladness in my heart;
"The Lord is my strength."
And here on this Earthly home, God has given me someone to give me strength and to help me in all of my daily struggles.
Here is me recognizing that this is a gift from God.
He is telling me that I am not alone, and that He has sent me this helper.
Finding your balance is hard, and trying to find your balance with your eyes closed, is even more difficult. At this moment I am trying to find that balance both literally and figuratively.
My new home needs time, my school work needs time, my technique needs time, my jobs need time.
Most of the time I am simply trying not to freak out.
There is so very much on my plate right now because I get a little excited about opportunities.
But I have blessings in my life who are keeping me safe, fed, and loved.
My supporters are my best friends right now; my boyfriend, my parents, my siblings, my friends, my family, and of course my Creator.
Through tears, hugs, and slow breathing exercises, I am able to not be in a chaotic state 24/7. Which is pretty nice, although I am still a mess.
Just as this post is.
I did want to write out a little update on thoughts, and since this morning has been so positive, I figured I would today.
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